Life is just so different now. Looking back realising how much I miss those years, how much I miss talking with 'em, how much I....
Now this is NO emo talk. It's just that I used to have sooo many thoughts, but when I come blogging, I couldn't remember what to say, typical me isn't it? aha. So I just crap about whatsoever. BUT, but now, I don't even have thoughts, I don't even think of anything, I mean I do, well of course, who doesn't? But what I'm thinking its just something YOU wouldn't understand, or that I just could express it out. So why come blogging since you have NO thougths to share?
Don't I just make sense? ;P I'm glad I just stick my tongue out. :) and I just put a smiley face. Know why? Because I just teared 5 mins ago. Nahh, I'm totally fine. See, I'm smiling. :) :) Okay now you must be thinking that something's wrong with me. So I shall tell you why.
It is because,
She's different now. :( you changed my dear friend, you seem just sooo cold to me now. The first thing you do when you see me is not a ''HI!'' Its always a "Why you never say hi to me? Like that already la, okay lorr''. and doesn't it makes you go like ''HUH? Wth?'' right? Its totally fine if you did that last time. Now that we're so cold you doing that its just plain wrong. W-R-O-N-G.
and you don't even bother knowing why. You come to me and asked me, but before I even start that conversation, or say the very first sentence, you turned around and walked away. Wth? and you call that not answering your question? YOU DIDN't EVEN WAIT FOR MY FIRST WORD TO COME OUT! Like my words takes ages to come out until you couldn't wait for it. -.-
Looking at you is like looking at a stranger. Its just exactly like knowing you the first time, but, worst. Don't you just feel that there's already no chemistry between us? and yet you didn't care. Oh no wait, you didn't even take some time thinking that there's something wrong.
Its not only me having these thoughts, other people told me to. I'm not finding faults in you, they agreed with me too. I'm truly sorry for whatsoever. You told me to tell you if you change, so should I? ha ha, I think I will be the one crying first. Then maybe you? After that you will say that its just me and my thoughts, other people didn't say that. What happens next? You don't friend me like those adorable kindergardens kids always do to their friends. I can assure that if we were not that cold yet, you'll trust me and change, its just too late already huh?
Tell you what! I miss the old you. :) very much. ohhhshiit, I'm crying. Urgh! I hate this. Okay I'm stopping here. I still love you la okay. You are still very dear to me. But for now, I've to put this aside. I won't name that person out, no one shall know who is it too. I'm just releasing that feeling. If you're guessing, I'll tell you that your answer is wrong. ;) haha.
So yeaahh, exams are coming! STUDY SMART! ;)
GOOD LUCK TO PMR-ians. :) you can do it!
I will not blog until exams are over or when I found my thoughts back. Ta's! for now.
URGH!
What should I do?
This is killing me.
Anyways,
think of my 'dear' textbooks first la.
But before that, going rock climbing tmr.
To release stress?
haha, nahh, just for fun. :)
